I started to record some of the moments that i could use to illustrate my relationship with dyslexia. I had a lot of breakdowns and crying episodes over the years that I can link directly/indirectly to my dyslexia. I tried to portray them in similar colours to my scarf.

When granted my extra time for exams, teachers did not properly comuncate this to me. It resulted in a lot of embarassment as the tests would finish and classmates would yell at me to stop or stare and later question me. There was now added anxierty for tests as i had the burned of "special needs".

Although IQ tests don't measure someones intelegence, it was something I held onto when doctors said it was extremely above average, since everythine else said I was a stupid. I had grown to have a wierd relationship with prizes, I didnt win many and so would fantasise about unexpectedly coming first place when my "intelligence" finally decided to kick in.

Everyone treated it as a secret and so I grew up to believe it was. When having to talk about it teachers would request private meetings. Once before an exam a teacher even pulled me into a broom closet with everyone watching to ask If I wanted the exam to be read to me. Once in a car ride a friend asked me directly and not knowing what to say i looked over at my mother already denying the fact as if it was something outrageous.

When first learning to read all the books were classified by levels with colours. It was a long corridor as I watched my whole class move to the end and quickly make it into the Library. I could never make it past the colour maroon and to this day find reading to be stressfull.

I had the idea of getting the memories I Illustrated and stiching them together. By creating this mask It will symbolize how Id hid from and under my deslexia all this time. In a constant state of vulnerability as it is not just a learning disability to me... but also a personality disability.

For my final work I filmed myself putting on my mask as I show to the camera each of the sections. This video is a starting point to also hopefully start conversation with my family about the issue of how it was delt and managade.